Learning to live again is a choice
It’s been said to me that learning to live again isn’t easy because it takes an act of defiance, a decision to face one’s fears. By comparison, cowardice is easy and requires almost no effort, save for repeating the same lies until you believe them wholeheartedly. The lying to yourself is a vital because almost no one wants to admit to being a coward, especially to his/herself. So instead, fearfulness gets disguised as a virtuous act of bravery and the world has seen a lot of that in the past 2 years.
My childhood was filled with abuse perpetrated by many but mostly by my grade school teachers, government goons (aka. Law Enforcement) and even the medical system. Needless to say, that I have a lot of emotional baggage and know first hand, what learning to live again entails. First they punished me for my own good and later they punished me for the good of others. To this day, other than being born, I don’t know what my crimes were. What kind of crimes can any child between that of a newborn to adolescence commit? A soft spoke polite child that wasn’t violent or stole anything from anyone? But like millions, perhaps billions, of other children I was convicted without a trial or proof of any wrong doing.
There are monsters who disguise themselves as humans
Since 2019, we have all been battered by the media and government(s) with a non-stop fear mongering message of death. They told us that it’s brave to hide in our homes and that it’s virtuous to hate anyone who questions their authority. This is why we must start learning to live again, because since 2019, we’ve been waiting for death. Unfortunately the war we are caught up in is incomparable to anything in our known history, neither like Nazi Germany, nor the terrorist attacks of 9/11. Our enemy is now our neighbors, friends and even family members. Everyone who fails to conform 100% to the new normal, we are told, is a murderous saboteur against all that is good. – But this outcry for public safety is truly nothing more than the offspring of a political lust for power and corporate greed that isn’t satisfied by the $1000 made ever single second.
Fortunately, just as the darkest night has its dawn and every war must eventually end. The things that went bump in the night are never as scary as we let ourselves believe. When the sun rises, we can either use it to see the beauty of life or let it burn us as it illuminates the depths of our paranoia. When learning to live again, you must accept that the brave bathe themselves in glory, while the coward recoils in horror in recognition of the atrocities s/he has committed.
2022 is a new year with a new opportunity to be brave. This year our enemy isn’t Covid, but fascism, a mental illness that no doctor can treat. Its only cure is a bitter pill called truth! It doesn’t matter who you are because time will write your eulogy and it’ll either record you as brave or a coward. Which will depend on which side of history you chose to be on and that depends on if you’re learning to live again or continuing to wait for death…it comes for all of us, but how much better is the life lived than that feared?
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